During the Visit the gyn, the gyn suppose to show us the video of the Operation process. but it’s not ready yet so he show us some of the pictures taken. One of the pictures show a view of the liver. with some tissue attach to it. A spin of cold sweat goes down my spine when I saw that. It’s just a thin tissue attach to it. I think it’s some vein and white color stuff that look like those fats on the pork you see in the market. I begin to imagine what happen if the doc accidentally use a bit more strength and injure or break the link to the liver, what’s going to happen? The thought of that really scare me.

I begin to feel that going to operation is really putting your live on someones else hand. All that someone need to do is just accidentally cut a thin vein from your organ and that’s it. You are gone. So being a surgeon must be very very careful and cannot afford to have any slightest mistake or NG. There’s no turning back and try again. There can only be one take. Any slightest mistake make by the surgeon can cause you your life if not permanent suffering. The image of the liver is still printed vividly in my mind now.

I still remember the first thing that come out of my wife mouth is “Hey this thing look like pork liver” before she realize that’s actually her liver. I can’t help laughing when I hear that.

Went we are at home later in the afternoon, my wife realize how important it is to save for a raining day. The first day she just do nothing and sleep the whole day. More activity on the second day. She begin to walk around the house and sit on the living room watching TV.

I called home just now and she told me that she has already feeling much better. But her occasion feeling to vomit has hurt her healing wound. She has been trying to refrain from taking the pain killer and medicine that prevent vomit worrying that it may affect our baby in some way. So I tell her just take the medicine when you think it’s necessary and don’t force yourself too much. I don’t want her to be so miserable.

It’s tough this few days but I think it’s worth it so long as both my wife and child is ok.

Saw the number is from my home, first thing that comes to my mind is ( Shit, that Ovarian Cysts in her stomach must be causing her a lot of pain ). I pick up the call and my father in law immediately ask me if I can take leaves and come back immediately. I don’t know what happen until he pass the phone to my wife and she told me that she’s in great pain at her right Ovarian Cysts. Ask me to go back immediately and bring her to the hospital.

Immediately I ask my OC for permission. He called our PNS office immediately and fortunately I’m able to leave. I guess they are also family man so they understand. But I have to get a letter from the gyn to prove that I’m not lying ( Which is not a problem as I’m genuine case ).

I call my wife as I’m walking out and set to meet her in the hospital. I reach first as I’m much nearer. By the time she reach, the pain has already subdue greatly by itself and she’s still able to walk. Once the gyn arrive he wanted to take the thing out immediately. The gyn briefly explain what going to happen. He said he will try to use a technique call laparoscopic where he only need 3 key hole cut. If it’s not suitable then he will use another technique call laparotomy where a more serious operation which involves a much larger cut across the top of the pubic hairline. The nurse suggest that she rest in the hospital since the next available slot to the ops room is at 7pm. While waiting in the room I can feel the fear in my wife. She was so scare that her body temperature went up and feels like slight fever. Well there’s nothing I can do but just console her.

Time pass by soon. The nurse came and push her down to the ops room at 1830 hrs and I think she’s trying very hard to hide her fear. I thought of going home and bath but change my mind as I was told that the ops should finish in 1.5-2 hrs time. I calculate the time and predicted that she should return to her room by latest 21:00 hrs. although the visiting hour ends at 2100 hrs. I can just wait till I’m told to leaves. So I just took a walk around a nearby shopping mall and went back to wait as I’m also quite worried too.

Her eldest brother came with her parent at 20:30 hrs. She came back nearly 9 but I see that she’s still in coma stage. Soon she woke up and we begin to talk and chit chat. I can see that she’s pale and weak. I have to wet her lips many time as she’s very thirsty but can’t drink or eat anything till next morning. My heart hurts to see her in a state like this. Tears nearly drop from the edge of my eyes.

As the Doc didn’t come to the ward, I couldn’t ask if there’s anything about our baby. So I think I just have to wait till next morning. Hopefully our baby is still around.

My mother-in-law suggest my wife to see a nun. Just no harm trying, you know. I don’t actually believe in this things but well, I guess I have no other choice, just try and see how and hope for better. Initially I expect to hear the same old stories, Pray, do kind things etc… She actually say that the cyst is actually cause by the food my wife eat. So she suggest that my wife stop eating any food that’s fried, Junk Food ( Potato Chips etc… ), Pepper, Any food that has chili. She say those food will encourage the cyst to grow. In another words she encourage my wife to eat healthy, and the cyst will shrink and go away. And also switch to eat Oat Meal instead of instant noodles before sleep if we feel hungry. For the first time I find that nun words make sense. So now I’m trying to stop my wife from eating those food, but I know it’s hard. She has been eating those for as long as I know her. I would have stop her or at least reduce her food habit greatly if I know that it would cause her so much pain in future.

For Now I just hope that it will reduce in size on our next visit to the gyn on 10 Mar. I really hope that she can avoid the ops at all cost.

We have already been planning for a second baby for quite some time. Finally the day come when my wife miss her period. We was so excited and decided to buy a pregnancy kit on the first day she miss. The result was positive. For the first time we was so happy. We are hopping for a daughter as we already got a son.

Few days later we were going to our gyn happily thinking of seeing the picture of our next child. As usual we have to queue even when we already have the appointment. The somewhat half an hour wait seems like forever. We are quite excited the whole time while waiting for our turn.

But to our horror other then our baby the doctor find out there’s something else. There a 106mm Right Ovarian Cysts. For the first time I was really scare. I have not heard of the term Right Ovarian Cysts before and I’m afraid of the unknown. I could feel my heart beating much faster. I thought something really bad has happen to my wife and my unborn baby. I could sense that my wife is terrify too as her face turn pale. I couldn’t wait to hear advise from our gyn, for once I have so many question for the doc. What is a Ovarian Cysts?? Is it serious? Is it life threatening?? What cause Ovarian Cysts to grow?? What can we do?? What kind of Option/Decision do we have?? Endless Question keep popping out of my mind. Why does this kind of things have to happen on us?? I just want my wife to be a normal person, why is it so difficult??? Why must my wife have to go through all this??? I just want her to be happy, Why must this happen to her….

The Doc say the Ovarian Cysts in woman is very very common, so common that he’s talking out one every week. But the one in my wife is very big and we have to come back next week for follow-up. And worse is because my wife is pregnant. When we ask about the cost. The Doctor told us, it’s about S$8000 if there’s no complication. Both of us nearly fainted when we hear that. As we are going home, My wife break down and cry. It really hurts me. Seriously I have never felt so hurt before, not even the last breakup from my ex girlfriend. I feel so useless, I can’t even protect my wife from going through all this. I wish the thing is growing in me instead. At least I feel better and I don’t have to worry for her. I guess that’s true love. When you are willing to suffer for someone else unconditionally, that is true love. Now we have two things to worry. That Right Ovarian Cysts in my wife and also the hospital cost if we have to take it out by ops. The baby is another worries. If you want to know more about Ovarian Cysts, just go to google or yahoo, type in the word Ovarian Cysts and there’s hundreds of pages about it, so I think I won’t want to elaborate it.

Actually we have already notice a lump in her stomach but thought it’s the baby so we didn’t take it to heart. But have been suspicious that it may be something else but didn’t bother when we are reaching the gyn as we are too excited about our new baby,

As soon as we got home, I quickly switch on the computer and type on the google search Ovarian Cysts hopping to find out as much detail as possible. And find out that it’s certainly not as serious as we thought but the thought as to go ops a chilling sensation of fear begins to creep down our spine. I feel as though I’m going through it with my wife. I imagine that I’m the one going for the ops together with her.

The First night was hell for us. I still remember my wife breakdown 3 time uncontrollably. Tears roll off her solf cheek. It’s like a needle penetrating into my heart to see her cry. I can’t stop thinking “WHY” , “Why does this have to happen on us” .

Breaking the news to her family members is another problem. But it’s not as bad as we thought. Her eldest brother offer to bring her to seek second opinion the next morning at KK ( A Famous Gov Woman Hospital in Singapore ). The gyn at kk say that the cyst is unlikely to shrink as it’s quite big. And there going our hope that it will shrink by itself and disappear by itself so nothing need to be done.

Second day is not as bad but still the thought if it bring tears on her face. She has been thinking every minutes, every second. I felt so helpless and useless. I can’t even offer her any comfort. All I can do is just to hug and tell her every things gonna be fine and the situation is not as bad as it seems. I tried to help her to do as many house work as possible and also baby sitting my son. So that my wife can have more rest. I has a hard time preventing my son to look for his mother. A few time he keep crying saying ma mi ma mi. He just don’t understand that his mom need to rest.

We are going for a follow-up again this week and see what the doctor say. Hopefully we can hear something good.

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