IcyFrost

We have already been planning for a second baby for quite some time. Finally the day come when my wife miss her period. We was so excited and decided to buy a pregnancy kit on the first day she miss. The result was positive. For the first time we was so happy. We are hopping for a daughter as we already got a son.

Few days later we were going to our gyn happily thinking of seeing the picture of our next child. As usual we have to queue even when we already have the appointment. The somewhat half an hour wait seems like forever. We are quite excited the whole time while waiting for our turn.

But to our horror other then our baby the doctor find out there’s something else. There a 106mm Right Ovarian Cysts. For the first time I was really scare. I have not heard of the term Right Ovarian Cysts before and I’m afraid of the unknown. I could feel my heart beating much faster. I thought something really bad has happen to my wife and my unborn baby. I could sense that my wife is terrify too as her face turn pale. I couldn’t wait to hear advise from our gyn, for once I have so many question for the doc. What is a Ovarian Cysts?? Is it serious? Is it life threatening?? What cause Ovarian Cysts to grow?? What can we do?? What kind of Option/Decision do we have?? Endless Question keep popping out of my mind. Why does this kind of things have to happen on us?? I just want my wife to be a normal person, why is it so difficult??? Why must my wife have to go through all this??? I just want her to be happy, Why must this happen to her….

The Doc say the Ovarian Cysts in woman is very very common, so common that he’s talking out one every week. But the one in my wife is very big and we have to come back next week for follow-up. And worse is because my wife is pregnant. When we ask about the cost. The Doctor told us, it’s about S$8000 if there’s no complication. Both of us nearly fainted when we hear that. As we are going home, My wife break down and cry. It really hurts me. Seriously I have never felt so hurt before, not even the last breakup from my ex girlfriend. I feel so useless, I can’t even protect my wife from going through all this. I wish the thing is growing in me instead. At least I feel better and I don’t have to worry for her. I guess that’s true love. When you are willing to suffer for someone else unconditionally, that is true love. Now we have two things to worry. That Right Ovarian Cysts in my wife and also the hospital cost if we have to take it out by ops. The baby is another worries. If you want to know more about Ovarian Cysts, just go to google or yahoo, type in the word Ovarian Cysts and there’s hundreds of pages about it, so I think I won’t want to elaborate it.

Actually we have already notice a lump in her stomach but thought it’s the baby so we didn’t take it to heart. But have been suspicious that it may be something else but didn’t bother when we are reaching the gyn as we are too excited about our new baby,

As soon as we got home, I quickly switch on the computer and type on the google search Ovarian Cysts hopping to find out as much detail as possible. And find out that it’s certainly not as serious as we thought but the thought as to go ops a chilling sensation of fear begins to creep down our spine. I feel as though I’m going through it with my wife. I imagine that I’m the one going for the ops together with her.

The First night was hell for us. I still remember my wife breakdown 3 time uncontrollably. Tears roll off her solf cheek. It’s like a needle penetrating into my heart to see her cry. I can’t stop thinking “WHY” , “Why does this have to happen on us” .

Breaking the news to her family members is another problem. But it’s not as bad as we thought. Her eldest brother offer to bring her to seek second opinion the next morning at KK ( A Famous Gov Woman Hospital in Singapore ). The gyn at kk say that the cyst is unlikely to shrink as it’s quite big. And there going our hope that it will shrink by itself and disappear by itself so nothing need to be done.

Second day is not as bad but still the thought if it bring tears on her face. She has been thinking every minutes, every second. I felt so helpless and useless. I can’t even offer her any comfort. All I can do is just to hug and tell her every things gonna be fine and the situation is not as bad as it seems. I tried to help her to do as many house work as possible and also baby sitting my son. So that my wife can have more rest. I has a hard time preventing my son to look for his mother. A few time he keep crying saying ma mi ma mi. He just don’t understand that his mom need to rest.

We are going for a follow-up again this week and see what the doctor say. Hopefully we can hear something good.